Once, I thought I knew it all. I thought my story was sadder than anyone else's story. I thought my family had endured more than anyone else's, but that was just our little secret to carry around. Psh, if only you knew. And by "once" I mean a million times. This is an easy habit [...]
Last night: chips and salsa, tacos, and sangria with my longest best friends. One declares she's learning to wait. (A fist pounded on the table to mark the historical moment.) She's the decision-maker of the team, so we cocked our heads a little bit, squinted, because this whole waiting to make a decision thing will [...]
A baby lost. Singleness prolonged. Families incomplete. I always feel different, changed in some deep way when I hear stories like these about faithful people who have plowed through serious heartbreak. No one expects to lose a newborn baby, one you've carried around for nine months, rubbing your belly while whispering prayers of forever. No [...]
More and more, I'm starting to believe in the quieting of pain. For some time, I subscribed to the pray-it-all-away mentality, the belief that God will surely eliminate the pain, the fear, the grief entirely. I've held out for the day when my anxious self will disappear, thinking I'm less-than until that day arrives when [...]
I lost my grocery list. Crumpled, half-folded, itemized secrets to eating and living. Blueberries Kale Flowers I forget. Omega-3s for joints, anti-inflammatory, immune-system-building ingredients. Back then, my elbows leaned on the cart as I crossed off essentials. But seasons change, it's gone, or it will resurface when the ice melts. Tonight: frozen pizza.